this is partly in response to cl's post, partly in response to something we've talked about and partly about something that's been going through my mind for a while now...
we are who we are. no one can change that. and we should not change ourselves to conform to the society around us. does it matter if we fall out of the norm of society? why should it?
there's no need, no reason to explain ourselves to everyone, to anyone. what we do, our actions each day should be enough to define us. to paint a portrait of our character, our inner self. if ppl around us do not understand why we did what we do, it's a simple fact that they do not know us well enough. should we be discouraged by that? if you are, why?
are we so desperate to be loved? to be accepted?
i'm trying desperately at the moment to accept who i am. to be who i am. to break free. to stop fighting against the tide of expectations of who i think i'm supposed to be. to live my life without second thoughts. to give 100% every day, every hour, every minute, every second...
i dun believe that i would be able to look back at all my decisions/ actions without regret. so why look back at all? what's done is done. c'est la vie...
ps: i had something totally different in mind when i started writting this. but once i started, i got carried away. guess i had some pent up emotions inside. thought of deleting it but then decided that my blog needs more emotion from me. it's been a while since i wrote anything anyway.
4 comments:
Hey Nic,
This is not your blog by the way. It's Chuu Liu's and you re the guest author. :D
Thoughtful post - yet - some indecisiveness here and there plus some ramblings too.
While the idea "we are who we are" is fascinating and emboldening, the utopian idea of not conforming to the society is best left for hippies. I would agree though - we have to stop trying to become who others want us to be, and to be whatever we want to be.
Who are we then? I think there is no explicit answer, but only implicit decision by each individual to decide who they are.
ps: you gotta start writing again. I am enjoying writing again...reminded me why i joined the editorials in VI agian. hahaha.
many great stories include epic struggles between forces of good n evil. these tales somehow captivates the reader's imagination n draws him or her into the drama. on one level, these tales resonate because we all sense that we're called to play a vital role in the ultimate struggle. it all depends on our interior struggle-who we are, what we want in life n set the kind of journey which is ahead of us!
yes, when ppl around us do not know us well enough, it will not discourage me but it makes me tired.
i am not desperate to be love nor to be accepted. i used to think that we can b ourself too because usually i do not care about what ppl say, think.
Apparently when i grew older when more n more ppl step into my life, it is imposible. Perhaps, I have change?
Like Kam said, it is an utopia idea. Not for us who live in a society.
aiya...screw it la...like you said our daily action should be enough to define ourself. If you know me, then good. If not, then watever.
kam
i'm a firm believer of wat's her's is mine and wat's mine is... well... MINE! =P
and on the thought of "we are who we are" and "not confirming to society" - i think it is the same philosophy really. and it is definitely not an utopian idea. far from it in fact. the utopian idea would be that every single person in a society has the same thoughts, the same emotions, the same perception to everything... however, i do admit it borders on the hippies lifestyle... but i'm not asking for anything so extreme you know? just simple, everyday concerns - mainstream books and music for instance...
but i guess there is a certain ammount of responsibility and maturity to be expected before we can achieve such a state... and it is something i believe to be generally impossible... which is unfortunate... =/
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